Thursday, September 30, 2010
Just some thoughts
I promise there's a freshly laundered cloth diaper post ready for you all tomorrow, but I was just sitting here and thinking a little and I thought if I was already sitting here with blogger open I might as well write it down.
So I was thinking about two different things.
The first thing:
Some people know that they are big stuff. And some people know that they are not. I, for one, know that I am not.
I don't mean that in a self-pity kind of way or in any kind of bad or sad way at all. I just mean that I live a small life and I'm happy about that. I never expect to be big and cool and famous. I never expect to be the latest or have the latest in anything. And I am totally fine with that. I am more than happy to just be quiet and personable and the same as everybody else.
This is the second thing I was thinking:
Why do I blog?
Last night as I was spending more time than I should have been writing for you all about cloth diapers, Bryan asked me why I was doing it. I told him I was doing it because I benefit so much from the all of the wonderful things that people share on their blogs or from all the helpful and encouraging comments you all leave here for me and I want to give back and share a little of what I've learned too. "Good answer," he replied. I think so too. And I meant what I said. Yes, I do have a few sponsors, but those are mostly just because I think it's fun to do trades with other moms and because I like to promote the side businesses of other moms.
These two thoughts came together when I received an e-mail tonight from a friend. A friend I met through blogger. Who sent me a heartfelt note that truly touched me. I read it and my heart was warmed deeply. And I thought to myself, "This is a good reason to blog."
Because once you've been blogging long enough there comes a day when you just plain feel sick of it. Or when you feel guilty trying to finish a post instead of playing with your kid. Or when you stay up until one in the morning finishing something for your blog and you think, "I am wasting my time!"
I'm not some big thing. And I'm never going to be. But if I can help someone feel loved and feel loved by them in return, if I can be the means of uplifting someone when they've had a hard day, if I can save you a few dollars by showing how to make something yourself for cheaper than you could buy it, if I can make someone's life better in some small way every now and then, then this is all worth it.
Somebody wiser than me said recently that our Father in Heaven always hears our prayers, but He often answers them through somebody else. So many people answer my prayers daily. I hope that once in a while I can do that for others.
I hope you all feel loved. I know Heavenly Father loves each of you. You're not just faces in a little box on the sidebar of my blog. You are real people living real lives, having real struggles and real joys. And you are wonderful. I so much enjoy the company I'm in here.
May you all feel the love of our Heavenly Father each day. And the love of a 24 year old girl sitting in a teal green armchair halfway around the world.