Saturday, August 20, 2011
Part Dos: Backing Myself Up
Thanks everyone for the kind comments you left on the post I wrote last night. I wanted to take a minute to clarify/defend what I said.
First of all, mostly I was saying it to be funny. Cuz, ya know, I'm funny.
Second of all, I'm concerned about my weight, but not, like, really concerned about my weight. If that makes sense. It's something I may always struggle with. But it's not an all-consuming worry. It's more that, someday, I hope to be pregnant again. And it would be cool if, when I am, people are like, "Oh cool!" and not like, "Oh, now you are? I had been wondering for a while."
And, third of all, I don't think it's bad or unhealthy to want to be skinny and have that be a goal. I think the world has tipped a little too far in the wrong direction on the whole weight issue thing. Of course people can still be beautiful if they're not an ideal weight. But that still doesn't make them healthy. I am not as healthy as I could be. I think we do a great disservice by telling people not to make health goals. I once even had a regular doctor tell me not to bother making weight loss goals because I probably wouldn't reach them. Really? That's sad. And just plain wrong. And you know what? I did prove her wrong. I've just gained some of it back since then. But before I gained it back, I was healthier. I want to be healthy like that again.
Also, from a financial/fashion standpoint, it would be so awesome to be skinny. Because if you have ever looked at a clearance rack, you know that there are two sizes there: skinny, and--uh--not medium. As someone who has been medium forever, I kind of can't help but dream about being a size 4 and picking up clearance jeans for $2. (Though, let's be honest here: even if I were to drop 20 pounds, I probably still wouldn't be a size 4. Just sayin'.)
Anyway, mostly, I just wanted to write this little follow-up post to let you all know that you don't need to worry about me thinking that I'm trash unless I'm skinny. Or that I think you're trash unless you're skinny. Because I think I'm pretty all the time. (I know, I know, so humble, right?)