*If you're behind on the saga of replacing my broken camera, you can read about it here, here, and here.
So on Friday I told you guys I bought a Canon Rebel XSi. Which I did. But here's the thing. Bryan and I both swear that the specific listing for the (used) camera we bought included the starter lens. But then we weren't sure, so Bryan contacted the seller (apparently he's allowed to, but I'm not) and, turns out, we were wrong. It didn't come with the lens after all. Which meant that we'd have to buy a lens for somewhere around $100, making the camera $400 instead of $300. So Bryan canceled our order. Bah. That was this morning.
After church today I spent hours looking at DSLRs on Amazon and Craigslist and a few other places and it made me so stressed. Part of the reason I had tried to make this whole new camera thing be a quick decision is because knew that if I spent too much time looking it would eventually spiral down into that whole inner battle of, "Well, I could spend a little less and get this one that's not quite as nice which is great because we'd save money, or I could get this nicer one that costs more, but I think I'd be happier with it in the long run."
That is, by the way, exactly what happened.
And after hours and hours of looking and e-mailing people on Craigslist and wondering if those cameras were even what I really wanted, I made a totally different decision.
I bought another point and shoot.
I know, I know. Not what you were expecting. Not what I was expecting either. But, in the end, it just made more sense.
The truth: I'm disappointed.
I really wanted a DSLR. I wanted to finally start learning how to use one and get good at it while Olivia's still little. I was so excited to finally join the club of people with "real" cameras and have more control over the pictures I take. I was so excited. And now... it's a no go.
The other truth: I'm relieved
While part of me was good at saying, "It's okay to buy a lower-end DSLR now and then upgrade when Bryan graduates," another part of me didn't buy it. I just hated the idea of putting all that money into something I was going to start out disappointed about.
The other thing that made me wary about buying a DSLR was that we had basically picked a budget for it out of thin air. And so it was going to feel like I had spent too much or like I could have spent more on it no matter what I chose. And I didn't want to have to feel guilty every time I took a picture.
So, I decided to do the responsible, frugal thing and buy another point and shoot for now. (Big emphasis on the "for now.") I still really want a DSLR. And I feel confident that someday I'll get one. But that day is either going to be when Bryan graduates and we actually have an income or when I earn enough from my shop to buy one.
Anyway, tonight we went ahead and bought a Canon Powershot for a whopping $87. Not bad, I say.
Part of the thing that helped me feel okay about buying another point and shoot is that I know I'll be satisfied with it. For a few reasons...
- Our old camera was 6 years old and it was nothing special even when it was brand new. So any brand new point and shoot is going to be at least as good, if not ten thousand times better, than our old camera.
- I really want a DSLR, but I know I won't want to take it everywhere, so at some point I'm going to want a point and shoot too. So it makes sense to go ahead and get one now since this is a camera that I can take with me everywhere.
- It's cheap enough that I won't feel guilty about buying it on our student budget. Sometimes peace of mind comes at a lower price, ya know?
- The camera we chose appears (from the ratings and feedback on Amazon) to be a good, reliable camera made by a company that is known for making high-quality cameras.
- This camera is brand new which just makes me feel better than buying a used camera from a stranger online.
- This camera will be here on Wednesday!
So, there you have it. A really long (and probably pretty boring--sorry) explanation of why I didn't follow my dreams (yet) and instead decided to live within my means.
Even though it's not flashy or exciting, it's a decision I feel pretty good about.
And I hope that's inspiring in its own way. Because, let me tell you, there's a lot to be said for living within our means.